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Yay ! My boyfriend started a blog ! He even dedicated the blog to me ! OH YESS !! Best boyfriend ever ! Maybe I could start reading what he really feels inside ? Maybe even know a thing or two that he dislikes bout me but too nice to say ? >:3 Whatever it's potential is, I am greatly touched by his move !! o(╯~╰)o *sniffles* This is his blog http://vincent-pencilpoint.blogspot.com/ !
Had a decently good week ! Had much fun watching my boyfriend play Prototype 2 until he bluescreened haha !! Anytime spent with him just feels so wonderful, I just want it to last forever ! He's alot less busy nowadays which I'm glad as it means he's less stressed and I get more time with him ! Tee~hee !
Today is Vincent's birthday !! I decided to draw him another art because I've really not done much for him and best I can do is draw, and even that is not really good :( Wish I've saved up more to get him stuff.. I did for the 1st time purchased something on Ebay. I bought him 24packs of Blind Bags Ponies for USD$100 delivery included. Hopefully the seller is an honest one and paranoid Stephie will receive it soon.
Also to top up the list of what a bad girlfriend I am, Vincent also bought me a mountain of birthday presents. I feel really bad that I couldn't exactly return him another mountain of presents.. Hopefully I can save up more to buy him something he likes maybe on Valentines or Christmas.
Despite feeling bad bout it, I am actually kinda happy bout it ! Receiving presents from my boyfriend ! Never thought I'd ever get to say that in my lifetime >"< Always I see and envy other girls getting presents from their boyfriend as they happily shows it to everyone. But then a part of me feel bad for being happy, because I feel like I'm materialistic if I am.. Is it okay to feel happy ?
It's not the fact of what he bought, to be honest, I'm tired of knowing what he bought for me already because he just flips me in a circle and flop me over in a puddle of trollconfusion. Its the major fact, a guy is giving me presents. And not just any guy, he's my boyfriend, my Vincent !
It's funny how I love this feeling when I claim myself as his or I claim him as mine. I feel, belonged and loved. This is the feeling I've been searching for all my life, to belong to someone, to be loved and accepted for who I am on the inside. But then sometimes I wonder, does Vincent deserves better ?
Indeed he does. For someone as amazing as him, he does deserve someone better then me, someone with inner and outer beauty, someone more flawless then me. But then my heart, is selfish, I can never imagine him with someone else. I've unknowingly fallen so in love with him, I could never stop myself anymore. Hell, I remembered how hard it was before we were even a couple, trying to stop myself from loving him before I hurt myself but I ended up falling deeper and deeper..
But I've vow to myself, if I decided to be selfish, then I've to prove to him I'm worth it. If I can't bear to let him go, then I've to keep him and be that one perfect girl he deserves to have. And I know I can do it, I'll do everything within my capability to make him the happiest guy and most of all, I will make him proud of me, proud to call me his waifu !!!
And no matter how hard or crazy life is, I wanna be there with you, hand in hand, because with you I'm complete <3 And there's nothing we can't pull through together as long we love each other !!
